All of you and all of me were together.
We were both on gurneys
separated
something wrong with our hearts.
At least I could see you,
talk to you, even as the doctors talked over us.
Before they put us on the stretchers
I could hold you, smell you, feel you close.
my dearest, I thought it took courage
for us to walk through your life
so full of pain from procedures
and operations.
But I am a coward in the face of your loss.
And while nightmares in sleep end with waking,
the nightmare of your loss just goes on and on…….
An Unexpected Life 
How I long for you, as you walk this difficult path, that you can have sweet dreams of Dan. May his soul rest sweetly! Love –
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Beautifully and poignantly expressed, Janet! May you find peace in that you cared for him with your full affection and love. As a mother who also lost a child (age 36), I appreciate your ability to voice your grief so meaningfully. My deep regret is that there were no opportunities for comfort, solace, and good-byes.
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