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All of you and all of me were together.

We were both on gurneys


something wrong with our hearts.

At least I could see you,

talk to you, even as the doctors talked over us.

Before they put us on the stretchers

I could hold you, smell you, feel you close.

my dearest, I thought it took courage

for us to walk through your life

so full of pain from procedures

and operations.

But I am a coward in the face of your loss.

And while nightmares in sleep end with waking,

the nightmare of your loss just goes on and on…….

2 Comments Post a comment
  1. glendalandis #

    How I long for you, as you walk this difficult path, that you can have sweet dreams of Dan. May his soul rest sweetly! Love –

    April 26, 2019
  2. Marcia Parker #

    Beautifully and poignantly expressed, Janet! May you find peace in that you cared for him with your full affection and love. As a mother who also lost a child (age 36), I appreciate your ability to voice your grief so meaningfully. My deep regret is that there were no opportunities for comfort, solace, and good-byes.

    April 26, 2019

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