This blog is full of drafts; half-formed ideas, memories, all trying to explain to myself, how any of this makes sense. I don’t have the words to this, for this unexpected life; the mystery that brought you, and the mystery that took you from me. How your great-grandma walked for miles, mourning her son, andContinue reading “Drafts”
Category Archives: grief
It is you
It is rage, Smothering, choking; It is night, Drawing down light; It is fear, Haunting empty hours; It is loss, Permeating every moment; It is suffering, Seared into memory; It is tears, Tasted on the cheek; It is words, Wept and sung; It is moments, Clung together; It is setbacks; It is hope; ItContinue reading “It is you”
Wanting mind
The wanting mind, always present, always asking for things, so many things. Intricately entwined in our DNA, our genes, part of survival, instinctual, incessant. Comprehending it is relatively simple, but hearing it, the ceaseless nagging of it, wears away at any state of contentment. That is it’s job, to keep asking and asking for thingsContinue reading “Wanting mind”
Solitude
Some grief requires solitude. An interval to withdraw from social norms and attempt to heal in silence the breech carved through you. Words, speech, even listening is hard. The effort required to perform simple tasks, to risk reaching out, even to your most trusted loved ones is unbearable. Because they know. They know your heartContinue reading “Solitude”
Gone
Dear heart, my Daniel, born at home in a stock tank filled with water, you nestled into our family seamlessly. Tucked into bed with me, your brother beside you and your Dad snuggled against him, you gave us one of the most beautiful moments of our lives. And now you are gone. Right afterContinue reading “Gone”
An Unexpected Life 