This blog is full of drafts; half-formed ideas, memories, all trying to explain to myself, how any of this makes sense. I don’t have the words to this, for this unexpected life; the mystery that brought you, and the mystery that took you from me. How your great-grandma walked for miles, mourning her son, andContinue reading “Drafts”
Category Archives: life
Defying gravity
The tide of your breath rises and falls; the ventilator, the moon, that gathers and releases it. Another night in the hospital. Me by your bed, gazing at you and remembering, as you lay sleeping and dreaming your dreams. Memories come to me in silken images. You; in navy, rubber rain boots, the blue powerContinue reading “Defying gravity”
Beauty
And still there is beauty. The blue white light of the moon slowly fading. as the warm, yellow sun rises. Walking out with my three companions, the snow freezes my toes. Thinking of my mother’s face, reflected in those of my sisters and brother, Her love carrying us like a wave, into another day onContinue reading “Beauty”
Being a Nurse
Oh Great Spirit, who watches over us all, from the tiniest single-celled organism to the magnificent artic wolf, please place me where I can be of most help to others today. My heart is heavy with the suffering of my fellow humans, and our weary earth. I know people can be demanding, and my desireContinue reading “Being a Nurse”
The Mystery of Healing
Many walking wounded (or rolling, as the case may be) are among us. Buddhism teaches that pain is inevitable in life, but suffering is optional. A primary lesson the Buddha taught is that pain + resistance = suffering. It’s not the easiest concept to digest when you or someone you love is in pain. ItContinue reading “The Mystery of Healing”
New day, new job
Today I start work for the first time outside our home in two years. I was up until 1:00, up again several times because of pain, and am now hoping coffee will pry my eyes open enough that I won’t fall asleep during orientation. A part of me wistfully wondered what it would be likeContinue reading “New day, new job”
Thoughtful blogging.
My last blog post wasn’t very thoughtful. Hopefully people read all of it and didn’t stop with my whining and complaining. (oh wait, that WAS all of it! : D ) Nothing in life comes with guarantees, and I’m very lucky to have the wonderful husband I do. The fact that I get triggered is myContinue reading “Thoughtful blogging.”
Resiliency and vulnerability
Listening To Shame is a talk by Brene’ Brown. (www.ordinarycourage.com). I’ve linked to it, because this is a talk I took notes on. Sitting at my dining room table (when I should have been making my family a fantastic dinner) I took notes on her talk so the words would be on paper for me toContinue reading “Resiliency and vulnerability”
Transitions
My oldest son left for a week yesterday. He’s vacationing with a friend and his family, people I really care about but don’t reach out to enough. I had tears in my eyes when he left, even though it isn’t “cool” to miss your teenager. (especially when it’s only for a week) He bring soContinue reading “Transitions”
Writing as a profession
I’ve been away from blogging and writing for weeks now, and it has had a definite impact on my overall view of myself and my life. Writing has always been important to me, as it is for many of us. It is stated in countless books about writing that for some, if not all authors,Continue reading “Writing as a profession”
An Unexpected Life 